I just don’t feel it
No love, no fear
No hate, no determination
Just an emptiness
A sort of loneliness
Surrounded by familiar faces and still feel alone
Constantly looking
Searching
For what?
I don’t know
I just know I don’t have it. And I need it
I don’t know if its a place, a person, thing or situation
A rush maybe?
I don’t know. But I need it
I go about with no drive
No motivation to get up and go other than that its expected of me
Honestly I just go about my day knowing that in the end… I get to sleep
Its when I’m at peace
No consciousness. The bliss of it all
No over active mind that over thinks
Just sleep
I feel empty
Why?
I don’t know
I just don’t feel

They will say you don’t belong.
They will assume you don’t relate.
They will underline your wrongs.
They will expect you to be late.
You are special.
Your talent pours from your pores, your foot steps and directions that are both certainly correct and your absolutely unsure.
Those cold lonely dark hallways called “What If”. Yea those are around. But if you don’t back down you unlock that door to warm hearts and dope situations in a room full of us called “What Now”.
You wake up, you win.
You try, you win.
You fail, you still win.
Long as your alive, cause if you die what then?
They will tell you, you only live once and that’s true.
But if you live correct and inspire him, that’s two.
And she? That’s three
Four and more
Five, strive
Create your dream, that creates your team, that creates your steam.
Till your hot, you naw mean?
The arrival

Unexpected Arrival - Diggy Simmons 3.20.12

When you develop an infatuation for someone you always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It doesn’t need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky, for example. Now, in the long run, that’s just the kind of dumb, irritating habit that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, it’s just what you’ve been searching for all these years.

(Source: cavum)

Don’t let anything stand in the way of you claiming and manifesting the life that you choose rather than the life you have by default.

(Source: kari-shma)

You keep trying to tell the truth about who you are but you keep changing, every time someone listens.

blackandkillingit:

I know this is not an advice blog but black women are the only people That came to mind. For the past 4 years I have been noticing racism even more and I have been discriminated against. I feel as though racism has made me racist! Mostly towards whites and asians…but now I’m gravitating towards hispanics and mixed.why? Because these are the races I have had the most hateful things said to me from.idk why but I want to know has anyone Else experienced this.I also have become embarrassed of my race because most stereotypes are coming true..so I guess I am racist towards blacks too especially males.I feel like black men are not loving are care about us like other races care for there’s. I have never had a young black man tell me I am pretty without Weave or contacts in the way they would tell me if I did. So what should I do? I hate being mad and angry about this topic all the time.

BGKI’s RESPONSE

I think that most people experience racism at least once in their life.  I completely understand how you feel when you say you feel racist toward your own race because they are acting stereotypical.  I experienced this when I began attending my university.  I just learned to accept people for who they are and do my best to show people that not all black people act stereotypical.  You have to remember that you can’t change the actions of others, but you can change your actions.

As far as males are concerned, I do think it is pretty hard to find a good, black man but then I realize that I cut off the majority of people for some reason (weight, height, attractiveness, etc.).  I don’t believe that there aren’t good, black men.  I think that there aren’t as many as there are good women and they don’t restrict themselves like women do.  Most black men have no problem dating outside their race, but most black women do.  Try to minimize the restrictions you have.  Maybe your significant other doesn’t have to be 6 feet with a body like Tyson Bedford and a smile like Tyrese.  Maybe he’s 5’10 with an athletic body and an impeccable personality.  Weigh your options and choose what’s important to you.  Good luck!

XOXOXO
-L.Danielle

Racisim towards you making you racist? Hmmm, when I mull this one through my head I think it would be reasonable to say that humans are defensive by nature.  If a certain ethnicity in your area seem to always attack you it would take a very strong person not to say anything back but look at it this way… racist people are stupid people so don’t join them.  

In terms of what you said about black men you have encountered, my brain always fails to grasp the concept of why black men would not uplift black women.  One doesn’t have to take a lady to the moon or be interested in her in a romantic way to give non-sexual compliments and encouraging words.  When I read things like this it only makes me shake my head.  So as to not confuse anyone, a girl that wears makeup or weave is not a bad thing, but any girl can rock her natural self and not feel insecure or have the confidence of a lioness gets a gold star in my book.  Best thing I can tell you is stay strong.

-Neil

captainquezle:

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Wiley ft. Cashtastic and Terez Delzz - Only Human

Sometimes it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders

And I still smile, even when I feel like I can’t go on much longer

I’m only human and I hope you understand

I’m only human doing the best I can

But its not enough…

I miss you, like everyday. I wanna be with you, but your far away.
I want your smile. I want it to brighten up my day.
I want your touch. Just to feel us physically connected.
I want you near me, just to know that your within arms reach.
To hear your voice. You say my name. Feeling your breathe caress my skin.
Long conversations in the wee hours of the night.
Laughter and cuddling and secrets shared.
Too see you look at me with pride. Knowing that I am completely yours.
But your far away. Oceans and countries apart.
But one day we will meet, you may get to know me, and then you might miss me the way I now miss you.

To: Danielle III ~ You not knowing of my existence makes my heart want you no less

(Source: tayloralisonswiftlyrics)

Its been years since I’ve felt whole. I hate feeling broken, but I barely remember what it feels like to be whole. Mixed emotions and wrong reactions. I can’t remember the last time I felt, truly felt… Emotion. I go through passively. Inserting what I think is the right emotion or response depending on the situation. Kinda like that show Dexter. My best friend could tell me right now that their mother died and I would feel no compassion. I would roll over and play the next show I have on my list of things to watch. If something personal happens, I know I would feel it. Something that never fails to move me is loosing the three people in this world that I would literally die for. I don’t know what to do. I’m still just drifting, with no real goal and purpose.

I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps and others emphasize my loneliness.

(Source: thetides)

If you’re absent during my struggle, don’t expect to be present during my success.